OHHHHH the weather outside is frightful and the fire is so delightful and since theres no place to go...

Let it snow, Let it snow, Let it snow!

So it's been a while since iv actually sat down to tell all who still read this how I feel and what's up in my life...i'll attempt to do that now.

Life has been great day to day. God has blessed me so much sometimes I wonder if it's all a dream. School is very good this semester, and I graduate in May which I will talk about in a sec. I love where I work. I have amazing managers and coworkers, most of who don't know Jesus so I know why im there, or at least I think I do. Life recently has changed. My spiritual life is moving faster, I pray to God that he will make the passion in my heart for Him grow more and more, and yet again He has been faithful in answering that.

So all of this amazing life stuff aside, i'm scared and lost. I don't have any idea what I want to do when I graduate and it is hitting me more then normal because...1. i'm graduating soon and 2. because of the sermon last night. I pray that God will show me and I do trust that He will (most of the time), but its so hard when its not my timing, because that means I have to be patient...and that is hard for me esp when it's coming around so fast. So that's me really, I know it's not a lot, but that's a good thing, because it normally is a lot.

Here is a song and some scripture that I have "heard" recently...

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight."

"Here I am"
Take me far away from here
Save me from this world of fear
Break me from the things I hold so near
Their so far from you
Reveal to me what you want me to do
Place me where your will draws me to
Lord be pleased with the worship I bring to you
I sing to you, I shout to you
Here I am send me out let me shine for your glory
I will read i'll live out and proclaim your word
Take me now show me how I need to live not for me
But for you and your glory
You and your glory

Pray for me.

A little look back into history...a year ago. crazy.

"I dont understand some people. We can be so stubborn sometimes. You can want something so bad and not give into something so minute to get it, cause it hurts your pride? I dunno, but im frustrated now and i have to start studying for my A&P test on friday. My birthday is tomorrow and im not sure how it will go,cause i have alot of studying. I dont think anything special will happen cause it usually doesnt, i mean they are great but nothin big really.  So i guess ill start to study and try not to be flustered anymore. Please pray for me guys! Thank you" Oct 12th

"TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY, 22!

started out kinda rough because of me of course, but it is slowly getting better with the help of certain people ;) I have to study most of the day, but i will take a break to watch a highly anticipated football game!!! If you read this say a little prayer for me, that i will not worrying about things and know that He is in control. THANKS GUYS!!!!"  Oct 13th

"Well yesterday was my birthday.

All I have to say is that it could have gone better. I had a test today (Friday) so all day yesterday (my birthday) after I got out of class, I studied. My mom didn't call to wake me up like she usually does, in fact she didn't call at all, which is so not her. I'm thinking she got side tracked or something, I dunno, I guess we'll see. My dad called at like 8 o'clock at night, so at least I got to talk to him. My brother didn't call either, and my sis wrote me an email. This so sounds like my family is crazy and we don't talk at all, but that's not how it is. That's why I'm like this is weird, and I'm not sure what's going on. But on the contrary to all of that chaos so many people wished me a Happy Birthday, like people I haven't talked to in FOREVER!! So that was real nice. Thank you so much guys, your awesome!! The highlight of my night, and it definitely was a highlight, was watching my guy friends play some flag football. They did so awesome!!! Props to you guys!!! I kicked the soccer ball around after words so that let out some stress, cause someone likes kicking it far for me to go run and get it! ;) Fun game right, ahh I guess so.

Yeah so I got three hours of sleep last night cause I was studying. However, I did pretty well on my Lab practical, so that was good. The studying paid off once more.

I've concluded that I'm not sure if I really like birthday's. Why, you ask? Well.........I think its because I get my hopes up about everything, and how its my day and all, and then something doesn't happen that I really wanted and I'm disappointed about it. Its called setting your expectations high and then being disappointed because you did so. BAD IDEA!! Set them low and then everything that happens will be like a surprise for you. Yeah I know easier said then done, but try it, it works......or should. So hopefully things get better, I don't have another test or homework for a week, so that will be a much needed break. Of course I have like all my tests the week after, so here we go again, right? I really hope this weekend turns out to be fun. Lots of stuff planned to do with friends, and unless they change plans then things will work out as expected!! Let's pray.

Oct 14

So that was me a year ago. Yes my birthday sucked, but i think it will be better this year. No tests, lots of friends and i'v already reminded my mom to call me ;)